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a moment away from life
Friday, February 07, 2014

I can't explain this slump I'm having. I don't know why I've lost interest in doing anything all of a sudden. Maybe I just need a break? But for how long? Have you had that feeling where you want to feel useless? I have that feeling right now, when I just don't want to do anything. Nothing at all. It's lazy on a major scale. It's that bad. And I don't care what others say. It's how I currently feel. And I'm wondering where the inspiration went. It's like my spirit has become tired.

Perhaps it's a fear of anticipation. I know the feeling of being busy. And I don't want to feel that feeling for some time. I've been so preoccupied with life that I burned out, that I strained myself, and I don't want anything to do with productivity anymore. But this is all an assumption, because my life is pretty much normal. I get the feeling that I've gotten tired of the monotony. I also can't get any satisfaction in life. I have no motivation to come up with something creative and refresh my life. Have I become too cynical? Too negative perhaps? Or maybe I'm just insane.

How am I depressed? After all of these? I'm surrounded by loving friends, I get by everyday, and I have a life. I should be happy in life. But there's something missing in my life. I want to look for it. I want to concentrate on refreshing my soul.

posted by: keitaro